I find myself spending too much time online getting exciting about things I want to do and try, and then when I go to bed I’ve woken up and forgotten everything and lost all motivation.
There is sewing, and knitting, and felting, and creating little animals, and printmaking, and drawing, and joining a choir. How could any one person be able to do all these things? The answer is I’m just a sad dabbler with no particular excellence in anything.
I’ve been exploring a friend’s flickr stream and it now I’m all excited about photography. “I need a Macro lens for my camera!” I think, having a eureka moment, and I’m off on a 3 hour discovery of photography and canon macro lenses. I’ve just been reading the beginner faqs on the PhotoNotes.org website to brush myself up on what might be a good lens because I’m a complete idiot on photography, and then I grab my camera and think “Oh! My Flickr page needs something new on it too.” I’ve pulled the battery to recharge it and now I just know that I’m not even going to touch my camera again until I see a new pretty picture to inspire me and I’ll be off again on another–probably unproductive and unfruitful–tangent.
I think my problem is I get all excitied about starting a project, but when the going gets tough, there is even the slightest hurtle, or even the fact it will take me longer than a day, I’ll give up, pack it away and forget about it for 6-12 months. It’s starting to get depressing and make me agry at myself. This blog is another example, 4 posts in a year! I mean seriously, whats that about?
At any rate, I’ve got two things to buy:
- a Canon 50mm 1.8, Ø52 (this one sounds pretty good) or EF 100mm 2.8 Macro/EF 100mm 2.8 Macro USM lens . Hopefully used.
- A sewing machine. I really like this one from John Lewis. Looks like a good price and 2 year warranty.
Because I’m such a baby at committing to spending money on myself, I’m hard pressed to just buy these things.
January goal, Acquire a Sewing Machine. I can do that. The next issue will be will I use the blooming thing to make getting it worthwhile? I hope so.
A Pretty Picture to end the rant, It’s a winterland here. Not high-quality, just handy-iPhone.